Because there was nothing lit, don’t imagine
I didn’t mark Diwali, that I don’t like
light. But there’s also a love for the crosswinds
that put out glowing flames. Pitch darkness strikes
the dark earth like lightning. Grief’s not equal
to an absence of lamps and festivals.
Grief too, can be a many-splendoured thing.
Grief too is a densely petalled flower
with its own lights nested within its folds -
they burn steadier though a bit lower,
of a much higher temperature threshold
and carry a much longer burning fuel
than a few earthen lamps and their ritual.
And it takes more than one night to get over.
So much more than one night to get over. If ever we do.
ReplyDeleteI am increasingly leaning towards thinking that grief stays with us forever, we just (mostly) learn to live with it. It changes us. And sometimes bites as hard as it ever did.
Agree. It's rather like a pebble in a laced boot. We just try to shift it to the least uncomfortable position but can get rid of it only when the shoe comes off.
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ReplyDeleteEC has spoken well... Loved your poem, Nila. YAM xx
Yes she always nails it! Glad you enjoyed the poem, Yamini, thank you.
DeleteLonger than a night or a season.
ReplyDeleteMuch longer.
DeleteBeautiful imagery. Grief is something that changes a person.
ReplyDeleteIndeed life and mind changing. Thanks for being here.
DeleteGrief has so many layers and stages.
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely. Many splendoured thing.
Deleteindeed - grief simmers, smolders, and then flares. Excellent poem
ReplyDeleteThank you. Grief does burn in myriad ways.
DeleteHi Nila - couldn't agree more with you and your poem ... grief is dark, yet there's always hope as we reflect ... wonderful thoughtful comments from your readers - thank you for this streak of light in the one-night onward going fest ... Hilary
ReplyDeleteHi Hilary - indeed grief is a dark place and the metaphor of Diwali fits it nicely. And my readers, including you, blow me away with their depth of understanding and compassion. Thank you.
Delete'Grief too, can be a many-splendoured thing'. So true, Nila. And I agree with Sue, you don't really ever get over it, you learn to live with it. I like your description of a pebble in a shoe. I hope your Diwali was rich and beautiful and full of light.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Denise. I had a quiet one, no lamps on account of my father. But Diwali night is always beautiful, lamps or no. Glad you enjoyed the poetry and the interactions.
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