When I saw the prompt - Letters –
for this month’s challenge at Romantic Friday Writers, it seemed a perfect fit
for some characters/lives I dreamed up a few years ago. I wrote a triad of Bengali short stories
sometime back – Chithhi (“The letter”), Ashtamangala (“The return of the
bride”) and Seemaheen Bidesh (“Borderlessly Foreign”), and you can read a
synopsis of all three stories here, if you have the time.
The mc is Abin Bhaduri, a middle-aged widowed man, living in early-nineties Kolkata, Bharati is the name of his wife. The others are Chhuti, his step-daughter and her husband Tareq, the couple live abroad; and Abin's long time companion-come-helper Ramcharan, and Ramcharan’s wife, Namita, though they have no role in the current story.
My first response to the prompt was
an abridged and translated version of the first story. But it felt a little lame to let go of the
prompt with a tweak of an old idea. So I
sat down and wrote afresh, directly in English no translations involved, about
the same characters. I also used the
challenge to write a separate story in verse form, in a series of sonnets, so all in all I have exploited the prompt quite fully, thank you RFW :)
I write in two languages, and what I
write in my mother tongue has always felt untranslatable to me, even though the
cultural context for what I write in English is much the same and I hope,
smoothly interchangeable. I have
always kept my Bengali and English writing separated, I have always thought the
emotions evoked, the settings, the dialogues in Bengali can’t be seamlessly
transposed to English. But this prompt
made me want to try. It will be interesting to see if I have been able to prove
Looking forward to your views!
Abin looks out of the window into the
garden briefly, before he bends to open the cabinet under its sill. He lifts up the pile of old newspapers and
gropes the concrete surface gently – nothing.
A little flutter of panic and he kneels laboriously to look closer, and
ah, there it is.
thing to say is – of course I’ll always be with you, in everything, everywhere,
don’t grieve. But that’s a lie. I’m tired of lies. The truth is, I will be nowhere when you read
this. But I was. I was with you. Everywhere. I must remember that till the end. So must you.”
A flake of paint falls into his teacup
from the ceiling as Abin straightens up. Early morning, there is no-one in the garden,
just the birds with their frenzied news exchange. He tries to remove the floating flake, but it
leads him a chase and crumbles. A crow
sits on the gatepost and croaks a single warning caw as a taxi turns in at the
far end of the block.
Abin heaves a long sigh. The house, Bharati’s house, needs
repainting. When she died, his
household help and companions, Ramcharan and Namita saw him through that loss;
Bharati’s own daughter Chhuti left her mother’s house at a marathon run soon
after, didn’t stop till she crossed an ocean and settled into a foreign land
and faith. Quite some time since she married her Arab husband Tareq.
Then Ramcharan died, and his son
claimed the mother; so Namita too left, and all that remains here to see him
through all his losses are the letters. Bits
of paper that Bharati wrote as she got ready to die. Two years she’d had to prepare, and she had
used them to make pickles, rows and rows of jars, and to scribble those odd
conversational notes, an instruction manual for coping; straight talk tucked
into desks and closets, messages in bottles and jars. Well, the pickles had finished a long time
ago. But her letters are there still, in the empty jars, inside the closets and
cabinets; read and reread. Bharati’s
voice still echoes around him in this house; he can access that comfort whenever
he wants. Though he hasn’t quite made
out till now what she meant by “So must you” – what? Remember that they were
together till her death, or remember it till his? He’s chosen to till his end, not that it’s a
choice. One can’t remember or forget on
demand. She was absurd sometimes. Abin
smiles a little and looks down again at the note in his hand.
It’s all still exactly as Bharati had
planned. The house, the garden. A gardener still comes to tend it part-time,
though Ramcharan is not there to supervise anymore. Few houses with patches of garden left now,
the older ones remade into high rises, often with only potted plants in the lobby. Houses have changed hands in this street
itself. Sutapa, Abin’s long time
neighbour and Bharati’s friend, has sold and moved out recently. He misses his old neighbours, Sutapa used to
make him pickles; sometimes he used to play chess with her husband. Another link with the past snapped.
needn’t be filed away in triplicate.
Leave this note where you found it, you’ll see you’ll forget, and come
upon me suddenly some other day, and it will be like a fresh discovery again.
Isn’t that better?”
He knows some of the notes by heart,
and still, the specific details of contents and locations do slip his mind
sometimes; so when he comes upon one suddenly, it still gives him an aching thrill.
can spend a lifetime rambling around alone.
One must find someone to share a laugh with, a shoulder to cry on, to
talk to. It’s easy to find shoulders,
but to bring oneself to rest one’s own head on a different living body and let
the tears soak it, now that’s never going to be easy.”
She never wrote any salutations or
signed off anywhere, he had thought he’ll find one headed “Dearest” or ended
with the customary phrases of undying affection, but nothing had ever been
found. In retrospect, it made sense, she
wasn’t the type to write in predetermined formats. He’d never found that shoulder anyway, and doesn’t
particularly want to. He stays here, the
guardian of her letters and garden. He is
content enough alone, shadowed by his own grief, an outcome Bharati hadn’t
The taxi meanwhile makes its way
round and now stops at the gate, to his surprise. Which redoubles when Tareq gets off it. They have just spoken last week, nothing
mentioned then. Tareq has dropped in
unannounced before, and that didn’t bode too well for Abin. He leaves his seat, walks swiftly out
onto the patio.
“Peace to you too, Tareq! Everything
“Oh yes, all fine. Chhuti would have
come, but she isn’t allowed travel. You are going to be a grandpa, Sir! I
thought you’ll want to be with her, a woman needs her parents such times. And we
didn’t want to tell you on phone. There
are other things too -,” he hoists his bag.
It strikes Abin again, this easy-going
gravity with which Tareq affords him the respect due to a father; of a
step-daughter’s father. He is delighted,
but all change, even good ones have a bitter-sweetness about the core.
“That’s great news, Tareq!
Congratulations! But how will I leave now? Before, Ramcharan was here. But now –“
“You leave that to us. This might be a good time for the repairs. We
could get a contractor, make a turnkey job of it –“
Abin interrupts horrified, “No, no,
that would mean all the letters – . Everything in the house will be upended,
Abin can’t quite explain the dilemma,
why he avoids all maintenance work like the plague.
” Let’s talk it over,” Tareq says as
he steps inside.
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