Friday 29 April 2022


Yep, still here. Still posting. Only one more to go...


Y is for...Yusuf

Yesterday I met some Indian expats who immediately filled me up with more economy-size horror stories about rob-n-run crimes and the cockroach to medical staff ratio of the local hospitals. Okay, I get it, the healthcare's basic and it’s not safe to go around wandering in the dark, but enough already!


The day before, I met a lovely family, fourth generation Indo-Fijian, strongly connected to both India and Fiji and super warm, hospitable, humble and down-to-earth. The lady offered me her number without my even asking. The guy is a presidential medal awardee and everything, apart from being chairman and president of this, that and the other. But you’d never guess hearing any of  them speak.


Anyway, all this socialising has meant less time to explore and write up my posts, there’s another event this evening (insert eyeroll here)…I was really tired out yesterday, the horror stories sap me, truly they do. (However, apart from the dire-y tales, I've also managed to prise out info on a local library - yay!)  I’ve come, I’ve listened, I’ve given the warnings their due weightage, and now I am through. Be sensible, keep eyes and mind open and carry on - is going to be my mantra, as always. I'll focus on what can be done and leave the rest to work itself out. 


Anyway, I don’t know if it was all the extra going out or the extra-large helpings of doom and gloom,  but my old friend insomnia struck last night, I woke up way before daybreak and couldn’t get back to sleep. Didn’t want to disturb my husband, so sat out on the balcony and watched the sky lighten by degrees. And from there, Yusuf was a natural progression…

From a personal standpoint, the last few years have been challenging. I feel a little bruised from their manhandling of me and my close family.  The very structure and form of my family has been metamorphosed into something that’ll still take me some time to get used to.  I had hoped this year would be different – a new place, a new start. But it’s the same old same old. A close family member back home has been diagnosed with cancer – it’s turned my heart and head inside out. Health issues are going to dog our collective life for the foreseeable future. Just super thankful that we are here and hubby’s able to do what he needs to do. So I'm praising with elation, praising every morning/God’s recreation of the new day. Not that I am evolved enough to understand the concept of an Almighty, definitely one of the ye-of-little-faith ones, but you know what I mean. May we each find the strength to overcome our individual crises, whatever they may be and do what we need to with an unrelenting focus.

While on the topic of thankfulness, I'd like to take the chance of also thanking the friends who've encouraged and supported me on this blog and otherwise, through this A-Z and through the other, much bigger challenges,  Alana,  Alex,  Denise,  Elephant’s Child,  Hilary,  KristinJoanneYamini - thank you! I cannot begin to sum up in words what it means to me. 


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Thursday 28 April 2022



X is for...Xanthophylls 


Xanthophylls are a class of organic compounds that are responsible for the yellow, orange, red and brown colours of fruits, vegetables and other plant parts. Specifically, the colours of autumn foliage and dropped leaves can be attributed to them. 

X is a tough letter, probably the toughest. But not to panic! - nature has an answer for everything, the toughest problems, the deepest cuts, the unkindest of knocks. Go to her and she will soothe all trauma, heal all injuries, calm everything down so one's in a fit state to present oneself again with the appropriate response to every crisis. 

Here are some examples of xanthophylls from my peregrinations various, some in Fiji, others elsewhere.  

Garden of the Sleeping Giant. Fiji. 2022.

Guadalquivir corniche, Seville, Spain. 2015. 

Lautoka waterfront. Fiji. 2022.

On the way to St Paul's School, Jalapahar, Darjeeling. 2013.

Lautoka waterfront, Fiji. 2022.

Madaba, Jordan. 2013.

As the tide recedes. Marine Dr, Lautoka, Fiji. 2022.

Ravindra Sarovar, Kolkata. 2020.

Lautoka waterfront, Fiji. 2022.

Incidentally, the yellow colour of turmeric, the ubiquitous spice used in nearly all Indian recipes, is also imparted by a xanthophyll. So are the colours in pawpaw, corn and peaches. But there's a certain romantic vibe about  fallen, yellow leaves which is entirely lacking in those mundane everyday foods. I mean, pawpaw? Heck, no! So that's my X - xanthophylls.  

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Wednesday 27 April 2022



W is for…Waterbirds


Where are the waterbirds? No seriously, wherever are they? I have seen mynahs and pigeons galore. But no gulls, no gulls! and very few waterbirds generally. Admitted, I haven’t been close to the sea except in the last three-four days. But even so.


The Indian or Common Mynah. Present everywhere.

Day before yesterday I spotted what I thought was a glossy ibis feeding close to the seawall at low tide, but it flew away before I could get close enough for a firm i.d. This morning there were two herons fishing in the shallows, one each on either side, not that they were a pair or anything. The tide has been out both mornings when I was walking which is actually great for bird spotting. I walked from one end of the road, which is called Marine Drive, to the other, up and down, before I came back into the hotel – in all I spent nearly an hour out walking beside the water. But no birds, apart from those two. The photos are all on the phone, not clear enough for any conclusive identification, but my guess is as good as anyone’s. I don’t think the bird I saw yesterday is either of these. The shape of the ibis beak is distinctive, though I realise now that it was against the light so any plumage would appear dark.


To my left. A White-faced Heron is my hypothesis.

On the grass verge there were the usual flocks of mynahs and pigeons pecking around, dozens of them whirr about in the mornings and evenings. You can hear them chirping from inside the room too. There’s no traffic noises to drown out the birdsong here.  There was a black, crested bird the other day sitting on the chain link fence, again not a close enough shot but that has to be a bulbul, which I understand was introduced to Fiji by the girmitiyas.

To my right. A heron definitely, but could be either a Reef or
a White-faced. I think it's a Reef because the colour was
uniformly dark, whichever way it turned or moved.


Fiji is rich in birdlife, it has to be, such a diverse and lush environment, the tropical forests, the hilly terrain and the vast ocean. There are mangroves here as well, which is another ecosystem with its own peculiar lifeforms. There are more than 160 bird species found in Fiji, around half of which are water/sea birds. Most of them are species I have never come across before – but they are all acting super elusive. Patience, as you’ll know if you’ve been reading this blog, is not among my virtues, but I guess it’s never too late to learn some.

Bulbul sitting on the fence. Introduced by the
Indian indentured labourers.

And I’ll have to get the regular camera out, bird shots are impossible on this piddly phone. I don’t know why I am putting off unpacking, there’s no way I can live out of one suitcase for three weeks. Or maybe even more – there’s no trace of the property I am to, ahem, inhabit. Waiting is an expat wife’s middle name. Patience should be too, but it isn’t, at least not this one’s. But then I’m putting my limbotime as I call it, to good use. 

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Tuesday 26 April 2022



V is for…Vax


We got our booster shots a week ago at a Lautoka health centre. We went in with our Indian passports and our Bahraini vaccine certificates and drove the staff out of their minds. Who takes the first two shots in one country, goes back to their home country, does not take the booster there and then blithely relocates unboostered to a third country during a pandemic?! Insane or what?


We explained that the Indian system has not yet developed an option for returning NRIs to register, (story of my life, btw! the step-motherly treatment of NRIs covers entire sectors, not just vaccines)  and anyway India isn’t giving boosters to everyone yet. Boosters are only available for 60+ so we don’t qualify. Incidentally the Bahraini app on my phone keeps flashing me reminders about how I am due for a booster since November last, they are boosting adults after six months. After some more explaining and patiently waiting while our details were entered in three separate systems, we got the shots and the cards which are now more valuable than rubies.


Fiji health infrastructure is basic, expats get health insurance to cover emergency medical travel into Australia/NZ as a matter of course. The Lautoka primary health centre reminded me of the health centres in Northern Nigeria 40 years ago. The same unplush wooden benches in the waiting rooms, whirring pedestal fans, no token systems, long waiting times. The road in front crumbling away to a dirt track, the parking lot overgrown with weeds. The nursing staff in contrast were excellent, both courteous and efficient. Suavely professional.


With my first shot of Astra-Zeneca I had a pretty severe backlash - fever, chills, headache, delirium, totally wiped out for a day. Second shot was a breeze. But this booster was Moderna, so I expected my system would react the same way as the first time, and took the pills before the reaction got fully underway. But even so I felt feverish, washed out and spent the next day in bed.


For all its lack of sophisticated healthcare facilities, Fiji has done a pretty good job of the vaccination. Around 76% of the total population has got at least one dose, 70% have got the full protocol.  Fiji went into lockdown, twice I think, with the one in April ‘21 being prolonged for two months. It affected the tourism sector, as also the availability of goods, business slumped.


The quarantine restrictions have now been lifted for fully vaccinated travellers. But there are testing requirements in place, both pre-boarding and post-landing. Masks are generally not being worn, and I have somehow happily transitioned to a maskless state without much unease.  I thought after nearly two years of constant mask wearing I’ll have trouble reverting back to normalcy. But thankfully, that hasn’t been an issue.


Victory over the virus is still some way away – have you seen the vaccination trackers for Nigeria (11%)  or Egypt (44%)? Africa as a whole (21%)? abysmal doesn’t begin to sum it! Till the world can vaccinate a large chunk of its entire population, the pandemic will not be over. 

View from the balcony

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Monday 25 April 2022



U is for…Underwater


Yesterday we checked out of the Nadi hotel and came to a Lautoka one. This reduces hubby’s two-way commute by about 40 km every day. But we’re booked here till early May only, then we move to Denarau which is farther beyond Nadi again. So I am not sure how this will help, but mine is not to argue why…the wheels of company practices grind exceedingly slow and exceedingly baffling…


Because of the forgotten suitcase, I repacked everything and took an unconscionable time to recheck every inch of each cabinet and drawer where things I’d unpacked might lurk. I am haunted by the fear of leaving something – test results or vaccine cards or something even more important, behind next and being stranded in a foreign country without the regulation papers.


Yesterday when we fetched up at Lautoka, the tide was high and the weather was fine. Today though it was a drizzle-sunny combo, which produced a rainbow first thing I saw in the morning. Unfortunately, underneath it, instead of the mandatory pot of gold or any other type eye candy was a ugly-functional no-frills warehouse type building. But still, a rainbow is always beautiful whatever it arches over - it felt like a divine omen.


It cleared up briefly as we went down to breakfast so I took a quick walk after. The tide had ebbed. As the water had receded the seawalls that were underwater yesterday were exposed. This too felt more significant that just rocks emerging from water - a reality check. An old frayed tyre had surfaced along with other debris. It happens with every place, every relocation, this high tide/low tide change of perspective and the seawall coming into view. Not unexpected. 

There was a whole flock of common mynahs hopping around on the low barrier and pecking at the grass verge. I saw a glossy ibis hunting off the rocks of the seawall but it flew away before I could get a shot, I am still with the phone and haven’t unpacked the big lens camera.  

It's been raining, sometimes in torrents, sometimes in drizzles, ever since I got back into the room. The weather too feels like a metaphor, the promise of the early rainbow swamped by incessant rains. Any place this green would have to have a substantial amount of rains, stands to reason. It's a good thing I'm not hung up about sunny weather, living in desert climates for decades has slow-seeded in me an uncommon appreciation for rain, but at times the most indefatigable optimism is not enough to stop the mood from ebbing out like the tide.  

The way everyone I’ve met so far has been telling me not to go walking after dark and/or alone, not to speak to strangers as they’ll make out from my Hindi I’m not local, not do this, nor do that, is rather upsetting. Being on my own doesn’t faze me, I can manage with my own company quite well. Expat wives and trailing spouses mostly have to, I’ve had long practice. But security is another matter altogether. Daunting.

Five books and very little solitary exploration – this is going to be an unprecedented challenge! But I’m up for it. Maybe the universe is telling me to complete my third manuscript of poems? We shall see...


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Sunday 24 April 2022



T is for....Today

Whatever's happened yesterday, whatever tough times it might
have is another chance to calm down..

To see things in perspective...and be grounded like these
ancient trees...and refocus...

...bend with the winds like tall grasses but then spring back too...

Tranquillity lies in flowing like water, in rising and falling
with the tides...

Today is another chance to be thankful...that what's going well
is going well...and what isn't can be improved with time and a
touch of patience. Have a wonderful Sunday!

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Saturday 23 April 2022



S is for...Steel


Steel is what my nerves are not made of. The first thing that got me rattled happened yesterday - hubby had gone on a business trip to Suva and was supposed to fly back last night after work. Rang me up to say his flight was cancelled and there was no space anywhere to be had, so he took a taxi back and was on the road at dead of night for some four hours, came back at 1:30 a.m. by which time I was beginning to freak out. 


Then this morning we landed up, by the kind offices of Google maps - at a single track bridge, which was just a narrow slab of concrete without any guardrails on the side, laid over a canal. Now we have been used to cars driving on the right side for 25 years, and Fiji, like India, drives on the left. So we are anyways tending to veer over on the 'wrong' side and have to consciously keep hugging the left side kerb. By the time we realised what we were up against, there was no scene of reversing and taking a different route. Cars on the opposite bank were flashing their lights at us to get a move on, so there was nothing for it but to go on.  Thankfully nothing happened, we got to the other side without any problems. But it was nerve wracking for anyone with soft serve floppy noodle nerves like mine. They were thoroughly wracked.

In the evening around 7:30, we went out in search for some slippers, hubby's have got left behind in that last, forgotten bag, and found much to our dismay that all the shops and markets were firmly shut. Maybe because it's a Saturday, or maybe because shops close early anyway out here in small town Fiji. Incidentally, I spotted a bookstore but couldn't go in obviously because it was shuttered. Then we got lost in the back roads of Nadi and I was terrified that we would somehow land up at that bridge again in the dark and this time there would be no saving us, the car would topple into that canal for sure. There were no streetlights and not much traffic, the GPS was asking us to turn off into even narrower, unsurfaced tracks, no way! So we just went on and on for miles through pitch dark sugar cane fields before we got to a proper lighted road again. From there we  managed to get back into roads which we recognised and ended up at an eatery we've been to before. My nerves by then had turned into wobbly jelly. 

So I came back and made this video from archival snaps to soothe  them a bit. Here it is :



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Friday 22 April 2022



R is for…Read


Remind me again where I am…many thousands of miles from India, many thousands of miles from Africa, a country and indeed a continent I have never visited. Yet in many ways this place feels like I've been here before, feels like a throwback to 1970’s Africa, the same narrow roads and low rise buildings, a small town feel, courteous drivers giving each other the right of way. Sudden stockouts in supermarkets, basic health infrastructure, low hills on the horizon everywhere one goes. Very similar if one discounts the presence of the sea. And of course, the internet (which is erratic, at least in the hotel).


I mentioned this in passing to my husband and he, who has not one single sentimental or nostalgic bone in his body, casually replied, “That’s how you feel about every place we go, everything is Africa.” It made me laugh out loud. Well, can I help it if Africa is so rich and beautiful that once you’ve lived there as a child, it becomes the benchmark for every other place you’ll ever experience? The prism through which you view and review every element of your life?

Low hills on the horizon...the Nausori Highlands...
visible everywhere in Nadi.

On reflection though, it’s true what he said – I felt the same way about Bahrain when I first moved there. The same hibiscus and bougainvillea splashed buildings, perfect strangers greeting me in public spaces, holding doors open for me without knowing me from Adam. The desert climate, the strong sunlight, the sandy soils, the mesquite trees, the less urbanised, laidback  yet tight-knit community lifestyle – all of that felt at once familiar and reassuring. I settled in without any problems. By that reckoning, Fiji should also be a breeze.


Except that in Bahrain hubby had travelled ahead of me, so I had gone from the airport to a functional home. I had sent on a small carton of books, so I had reading material sorted to some extent. Bahrain those days had few bookshops and availability of books was an issue – that too was a throwback to small town Africa of my childhood. I figured out that in time.  Subscriptions   to magazines and trips to Dubai, India, Europe – the holidays and home leave were major opportunities for book shopping, utilised to the hilt. By the time I left Bahrain 25 years later there was a Virgin Megastore.  And Amazon had meanwhile transformed the dynamics of the whole book distribution market worldwide.


Bahrain, despite having a population roughly double that of Fiji, is tiny geographically – all the bookshops were located within half an hour’s drive, as we lived in the capital. Also, Bahrain’s per capita GDP is nearly 5 times that of Fiji, that has a direct bearing on the shopping options available in any market.  So, Fiji is much larger and poorer (btw, still way richer than India’s per capita GDP.)  The capital, Suva, is a half an hour’s flight and half a day’s driving from where we are. And Suva, very logically, is where the large bookshops are. Religion seems to play a huge role in the Fijian lifestyle, more than half the population is Methodist, and the few bookshops nearby are dedicated to Christian spiritual books.


Narrow roads and a high level of road courtesy...this is the
Queens Road connecting Lautoka to Sigatoka.

Books do NOT make for travelling light, forgive me if I’ve bored you with this before, they gobble up the baggage allowance something crazy. This time, between the two of us, we’ve got exactly five books, three of them picked up as we travelled through the airports. I’ve already finished the ones I got. I’m not sure what I am going to do about fresh reading material.


But this too is reminiscent of my childhood relocations, learning to navigate places with meagre book supplies. In Maiduguri, parents got me children’s magazine subscriptions from India, they reached me by sea mail months after they came out. My father, whenever he went on work trips to the larger cities, would pick up books for me as well as himself.  In Bauchi, growing into my teens, we would make occasional trips to Jos, 80 miles away,  for some difficult-to-get item such as a sewing machine or music system, and that would be combined with bookstore visits. And of course, I borrowed the daylights out of whatever books my friends had and from the school library and from my parents’ friends, and in turn they borrowed from me.


I'd have to travel on this road...for nearly 200 kms
before I can get to a large bookstore...

I was a relentless book hunter and reader those days, my passion for reading burns lower and more selectively now. Nevertheless, books are a required staple just as Basmati rice is. I’ve figured the rice bit out already, no doubt I’ll be able to figure the others too with time. Maybe I can get them shipped over from Australia or NZ? At any rate, going bookstore spotting is one of my favourite things!

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Thursday 21 April 2022



Q is for….Qet


Qet?! Yup, that is the Arabic for cat, may or may not be the origin of the Latin cattus from which English cat  is derived. It came to mind because today it is raining cats and dogs here in Nadi. The mountains have disappeared, I can only see up to the palms that border the golf course and the road just beyond it. The rest is invisible whitemisty swirls. Maybe because of the rain,  the internet today is hard to pin down too, acting snooty - like a cat often does.


Now Q is a super serious letter, it makes me quail every time. It demands gravitas and earnest, painstaking labour. Like the ant that hefts loads larger than itself and stashes things away for the hard, rigorous winter that descends on the A-Z from Q to Z. But my mind is playing the grasshopper today, it refuses to hold onto any subject seriously for any given length of time. It’s leaping from word to word, nibbling at one briefly, then running its forelegs through the next one and then leaping off into a giant jump for another, quite unrelated subject. Quo vadis, O Grasshopper?


What’s happened is this – Joanne from Word Splash, a long-time friend, had mentioned Amanda Gorman. Of course that made me go back instantly to listen to her absolutely magnificent poem. For the nth or rather qth time -  Amanda and her poem never fail to amaze. And that one line where she recites “…quiet isn’t always peace” – it’s like the words have been etched on my soul from some earlier birth in quaternary times. So I wrote a response quatrain to it - it sulked because it thought itself too grand for  just four lines. I had to write a full fourteen to quiet it down. Here are the first -


Quiet is rarely peace, it’s the lull before the storm

it’s often prepping for war, reaching for the guns,

it’s the split second before someone explodes the bomb,

quiet isn’t quiet - it’s studying ammunitions.


But then the grasshopper flew off again, it doesn’t do serious at all. And I thought yeah, all this angsty woe-is-me witnessing yet another war and floods of refugees...okay, it’s not that I’m for violence or dictatorial systems of government or general cruelty and human rights abuse, I am NOT. But it’s not going to wholly demolish the global quest for nuclear disarmament and peace and justice and gender equality, if I don’t, just for once, post another of my whingy outbursts. So that was that.


Then the grasshopper landed on quarantine – stands to reason in covid times, right? I got as far as saying that Fiji has lifted quarantine rules for fully vaccinated travellers from 7th April, provided they take 1) Pre-boarding covid test 2) Post landing covid test and 3) travel insurance covering covid…but Grass H. had no patience with that also and took off in a quantum leap.


As a last resort, I am going to talk about the Queens Road, which is the road I find myself on, going and coming everywhere in Fiji. It is actually a highway connecting Sigatoka in the south-west to Lautoka up north via Nadi. I travelled along the road going to the Garden, to the less edifying Lautoka factory and also to McDonalds last night for dinner. Not a fan of McD’s but heavens, was I glad to see a known face!  The grasshopper has hopped off again, really I might as well quit while I am ahead. Am I, though?! Never mind…





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Wednesday 20 April 2022

Write... Edit... Publish... April 2022 : A Hard Rain's Gonna Fall


There’s nothing much in common between us.

Just the hard, fiery rain of these bullets.

Just the concentric waves of the virus.

But an unequal share of the planet.


We’ve nothing in common even as we flee.

Your route’s a black ribbon made of velvet.

And mine’s the pounding of an unkind sea.

A wobbly raft, a camp and a pallet.


We just share a word – that's hardly enough.

And we share the cruel falsehoods we are told.

We’re told our rights, a world that waits with love.

But the rights are yours, I’m shut out in the cold.


My home, my route, my skin define what I get -

the harder rains. And an unequal planet.

This one's for the refugees, the dispossessed, the asylum seekers fleeing conflict zones across the world. May they find a warm welcome wherever they go and may their tribe and hardships dwindle.

WC - 128


Tagline : All refugees are equal but some are more equal than others. 

This is a scheduled entry. I am relocating out of India this month and have no idea how I'll be placed for an internet connection when this goes live. But I'll be catching up with you as soon as things are sorted. 

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Tuesday 19 April 2022



P is for…Progress

Lautoka to Nadi. Sugarcane fields flanked part of the way.

Every relocation has a set process. The formalities before you get into the country, the formalities after you get in. The pandemic has added the covid test, vaccination protocols to that, but even without them, the wheels of the bureaucracy grind exceedingly slowly, the world over. The relocation out of India adds another layer. Fiji's has been the most elaborate process so far – the police clearance from Kolkata Police, the detailed medical tests for the job holder and spouse, the insurances -  a Pacific Ocean of paperwork, if you’ll permit me a bad pun. The paraphernalia seemed endless at the beginning but slowly and steadily it got done, bit by bit. 

These old trees, a double row of them, were planted by the
Girmitiya ancestors, I was told - indentured labourers from 
India brought in by the British in late 1800's.

Digitisation and the internet however, have made things much quicker – thank heavens! Hubby’s passport (expired most inconveniently last December!) was done in less than a week start to finish, the application and payment made online from home. The Police clearance certificate, also applied for online, came through in 24 hours. (Probably because we don’t have criminal records!) Papers were scanned and sent whizzing over the net and took no time at all. The only packet of original signed documents that had to be couriered to Fiji took more than two weeks to reach the recipient so imagine what the time requirement would be if we had had to send everything that way. Phew!


So are there no problems in this tropical paradise? You bet there
are! Politics is fraught and their democracy is fragile, as in many
other new nations. But this too is part of being an expat - see
and listen, but don't meddle. No taking sides, no participation. 

Now that we are here, things are moving at a fair pace. The phones were organised even before we landed, so the SIMs were just slotted in as soon as we got here. Local IDs, bank account, driver’s licence, property viewing and lease, and of course, the booster shot. India is currently giving boosters to 60+ so we were not eligible there. But here we are, more about that later. Today I had to get into Lautoka for some admin work, the second city in Fiji. The whole place is just lush green and picturesque. As the photographic proof shows. 

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