I’m not at that bedside when life
ebbs from it,
I’m not at the riverbank when the
pyre’s lit.
But I’m lessened all the same
wherever I am,
and I bear witness in the way my
life permits.
And I bear witness to each of
those lonely trips,
to the vast, unending silence of
silent lips.
I hold it cradled within the
heart of my life
through every throb of happiness
and all hardships.
A close and a favourite relative has passed away back home and I do not have the heart today to craft and polish fancy metaphors. Writing it as it comes, the good (and there was much good, he was such a lively and fun person that just hearing his voice was a mood-lift! Really, he could give the term joie-de-vivre an inferiority complex!), the bad, and the ugly. His daughter is making a lonely trip today, the loneliest possible, starting out from USA to India, the longest and the most terrible of journeys for anybody, and although I can't be with her as I want to be, I am there in spirit. Remembering, honouring, celebrating and mourning him every step of the way.
I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds as if his loss has diminished the world for everyone who knew him.
I'm sorry for the lost of someone close and who brought much joy. Prayers for your family and may his daughter have a safe journey.
ReplyDeleteHi Nila - what a lovely thoughtful post to your relative ... losing someone who can lift us up - is not easy, especially if we are distant. My thoughts ... but his daughter does have a very sad journey to make ... all the best for the family - Hilary
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss. Words that flow at such an emotional time are closest to heart, raw and real.
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry for your loss of a special person in your life, Nila.
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your kind words and prayers.
ReplyDeleteHeartfelt condolences on the loss.
ReplyDeleteThrough your very natural and moving words Nila, you have indeed remembered, honoured, celebrated and mourned this lovely man. He must have been really someone! I feel for his daughter. That is a long journey to take in sadness, alone.
ReplyDeletePrayers for you at this time, dearest friend. :-)
Thank you, Maliny and Denise.
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