Constituent Parts

 

Within me you'll find my parents

and in me you'll find my sons,

you'll find them all everywhere in me

but they're not the only ones.

There are folks too that you'd never know -

friends, and strangers I've met just once.

For we aren't only our forefathers.

And we're not just our descendants.

The houses that I've ever lived in

continue to live in me.

The beaches I've picked seashells from

shop fronts I've looked at longingly.

The woods I've walked, the glory of stars,

the shadow of bird and tree.

For we're not just folks that are in us,

we are all that we hear and see.

The sum of my whole's never equalled

the sum of my constituent parts.

Each word I wrote and then scratched out,

every stumble and all false starts.

The half done poems that missed a beat,

the stories that made me fall apart.

For we come to be all that we've loved,

everything that's nailed to our hearts. 

 

Saffron, white and green are the colours of the Indian flag. Here today because 26th January is celebrated as Republic Day in India, to commemorate the adoption of the Constitution in 1950 and so completing the transition to a sovereign republic nation, where everyone has an equal chance at happiness and freedom. One of the many important things drilled into me by family elders, teachers and even random strangers sometimes. Nailed to the heart in short.

Happy Republic Day to all Indian citizens. May democratic values prevail across the world and in India always. 

Cocoons of Stone

 

'Rivers know this : There is no hurry. We shall get there some day.' ~ Winnie the Pooh.

Sometimes it needs a little bit more,

sometimes a little less.

All life sustaining grains are grasses,

I’m told – so’s mortal flesh,

and I’m told love’s like the breeze in trees

never seen, only felt,

a shaken bud and some falling leaves

try hard but cannot help.

 

I’ll go with you to the bamboo grove

alight with fireflies

and to ancient riverbanks raked up

their gold and silver prized,

some boat cruising the narrow stream

will call for us to come -

we’ll signal back panicked that we know

neither to sink nor swim.

 

I’ve read in books with that paper smell

that love’s a fever dream,

it burns and cools and boils up again -

no one knows what it means,

and most times what we think are stars

are just bugs with backs aglow,

and for a hundred crowns of thorns

there’s just one reluctant rose.

 

I’ll come with you to the desert sands

pleated even by the wind.

The wind that’s a metaphor for love

on some eternal brink,

there’ll be no birdcalls at sunset

only the slinking fox,

the viper fangs, the scorpion nests,

no human calling the shots.

 

The rainsong’s loud and the desert’s wide

and the sands consume the drops,

the earth gives back as per its whims

a field of flowers or nought

and everyday the sun segues

a degree north or south,

a puppet moon tugs at the tides

hidden behind the clouds

 

I’ll come with you to medieval forts

like cocoons spun in stone,

walk beside you on paths laid prior

in some forgotten aeon,

and every step we take on the grass,

winds keening into storms,

each blade a sign of mortality - 

our arms make no final home.

 

I’m told star constellations have formed

some sort of secret code,

those who know how to decipher them

know the miracles wrought,

and though grass dies the secret lies

in its always cycling back

as we too of the mortal flesh.

No need for panic attacks.

 

Sometimes it needs a couple of words

and sometimes a fortress

to understand how the grass withers

to equal dust of flesh,

sometimes it needs a stanza or eight

to figure the meanings here

and sometimes it needs nothing at all

the silence’s loud and clear.

A long time ago, the offspring was a child then, his age in single digits, during a different autumn delirious with hope, he had asked - is he the President of the World? - the capitals very evident in the question. Indeed, my son. I had tried to explain why it seemed that way with the TV coverage, especially in the Middle East, because millions of lives are impacted by who gets voted in there even though the rest of the world has no say in it. 

Elections leave me feeling somewhat battered, in my country and in the most powerful nation. I have extended family settled in the USA for decades, some of them are feeling on top of the world right now, some others are devastated. It was the same here in India a few months ago. Endless gnashing of teeth and beating of breasts, houha unlimited, analysis of this percentage and that share and why? why? why? and how are we ever going to survive?

My own two cents - Rome wasn't built in a day, therefore it is unlikely to be destroyed in a day too. What's been put together over two and a half millennia/centuries can't be annihilated in four or fourteen or even forty years. Calm down, people. Whoever gets voted in will leave too, sooner or later, and someone else will take his place. No matter how far the pendulum swings out to the left or right, when it stops, it stops in the middle. We'll get the future we all deserve, equality, liberty, justice and peace, whichever route it takes to get there. Equilibrium is a law of nature.

On a completely different note, this here is the 1001th verse entry on this page. And the October post for WEP was the 50th flash I've posted. That feels like a milestone or something, which I have to admit I'm bad at noticing, but better late than never. Or I can say, there need be no hurry here either. Mini celebration is duly being observed, if with a time lag. 

Have a peaceful and happy week, hope you have lots to celebrate at your end.

Numbers mean nothing

 

Mariner's Reach, Denarau, Fiji.

How many nights must you spend under a roof,

before you can call it a home?

Some say just thirty, others a thousand,

but I say to you – listen closely, my friend,

there’s no magic number, no theorem that proves

the time span that seals your claim.

A few aches are certain every time you move.

Thirty or thousand it’s all the same.

 

But there’s that horizon, oceans that heave,

a pink sky so breathtaking,

and a bird call can fling your life open.

Home has its place, but the wider world beckons,

your feet forget themselves and pack to leave,

done with walls and the same dawns breaking.

One step. And two. Dust eddies round your feet

and somewhere a welcome is waiting.

 

There’s that long horizon, pathways that twist

in and out of unknown forests.

The light is a tunnel that lures like a trap,

the ribs of leaves are rivers on a map,

the breeze writes gently on your back and lists

the things that can unravel rest.

And somewhere a welcome is waiting amidst

strangers’ smiles to the east or west.

 

Here it is cosy, the smoke from the stove

spiced with cinnamon and anise.

Secret garnets in the depths of tamarind,

the slow unfolding music of the winds,

butterfly wings in someone’s mango grove

in some weird definition of bliss.

The paddies are furred and rich, seen from above –

the world has its place. So has this.

 

So that’s it – you’ll sway, swing back, twang away,

the horizon just out of range.

The airplanes will keep flying overhead

to different cities with others instead.

The ships will weigh anchor and go on their way –

you’ll always be chasing change.

And you’ll wonder how many nights and days

make home and what makes a roof strange.

 

All your days you’ll fritter away in research

and find that numbers mean nothing.

Only the movement of road, car and coach,

the aerial view of a strange town’s approach,

the spiral of descent, the craft’s thrilling lurch,

the horizons in blues and pinks.

Only being out and away by and large

gives roofs their final meaning.

Welcome to M-i-V! - now based out of Kolkata! Hopefully, for good. I thought I'll post a bit early since I've been away for so long...and say things in...um...slightly more expansive wordcounts. It's also been the longest time since I wrote anything more than a 14 liner. In fact the last long-ish poem I wrote was in 2017 - Remembering Zeinabu. 

The pandemic years have made me shrink in many ways, this is one of them. However, it's time to put that behind me and open up a bit - it's the fourth year of the Big P and my store of small p patience was never really robust. Neither is my word (limit) control. Expect longer stanzas, line counts, ramblings...thank you for reading and your time!

There's lots happening this month, both on the personal front and online. The offspring has come home for a few days and the aforesaid home looks like a disaster zone, but who cares? It's good to have the family under one roof, even if it is only for a fortnight. I hope to be back to regular posts here, also get back to my normal reading as and when I am able to straighten the house out. A few aches are certain every time you move...I'm finding many layers of meaning in that line. The bookshelves are full, even though in complete disarray, a hodgepodge of Bengali, English and genres - Emily D is next to Asimov and just looking at that is freaking me out... :) There's no way anyone can ever locate a specific book in this current mess. That's a job that needs tackling pronto but will have to wait till son flies back to uni. 

Online, there's WEP, the Chocolat Challenge, I can't say enough about that deliciousness however many wordcounts you allow me... so excited! And looking forward to what people write for this one!

I hope the month has started well for you and may it continue throughout. Have an awesome August! See you soon.

On being sent a photo of a Nepali woman baking clay pots

Clay’s useful only when it’s hollowed out,

fired in unbearable kilns and hardened;

the base level, the shape even throughout,

but it’s fragile still, it'll crack in the end.
The potter breaks, though later than the pot,

and once they’ve broken - difficult to mend -

they could be stuck back, sure, but you cannot

unsee the cracks, the fault lines that’ve opened.



Slowly getting back on track, onward with the teeny-tiny and long titles. Or maybe I should have just called it 'Crackpot' :) 

Will be round to catch up on the reading soon.  Can't believe January's nearly over! Hope 2019 is treating you well.

Recipe

Do this now, with a great amount of care,

split the pod of this body and expose

the nuclei that have passed for my mind -

(I’m not so sure of the immortal soul)

flick a nail down the line of join and tear

the kernels like plump peas into a bowl

prop the shell against a surface, because

all said and done, no pea is quite designed

to be without its shell, dangling from - what?

so keep the cover handy, though aside;

press the plumpness between index and thumb

or spin it in a tunnel in deep earth

centrifuge it, then see what you can spot.

I’ll bet the shell, for whatever little it’s worth

that nothing poetry can be teased and spied

no fancy love slime dredged up from the crumbs.

Amazement does not leave a single trace

and blasé curdles nothing in the blood

it throbs or plummets once, and it is done;

split the shell and spin the nuclei

search fibres in the guts and in the face

crack straight backbones and slipped discs of the eye

and still there will be nothing, not a shred

however fast the particles are spun.

The leaves that I have turned, the paper thin

beams that vaulted over cobbles of dawns

the jewelled dew scattered on dead grasses

monsoon rain-misted roofs and mountaintops -

nothing remains under or on the skin;

a purple pulse might quicken, but then stops,

resumes its sedate beat, wonder passes,

so does boredom, both froth of pheromones.

Take the pods, unravel every helix;

and split the hair as fine as it can stand;

gaze into the bamboo hollow navel;

dissect each limb till you are satisfied;

and still you will find nothing in the mix -

how smiles and tears were made to coincide.

Deep into the subatomic level

rung by rung, climb down into the grand

atrium of the heart and the great dome

where bare-arsed, bare-fanged, famished nightmares pace

along the walls, chafe in their prison cells

and fringed dreams swish like stiff, curled mongrel tales.

Go over it all with a hound’s tooth comb

the froth and spit and fluids, each detail

and then put back the halves, close the pod, and tell

me what kind of love rhyme is in my face?