Yep, still here. Still posting. Only one more to go...
Y
is for...Yusuf
Yesterday
I met some Indian expats who immediately filled me up with more economy-size
horror stories about rob-n-run crimes and the cockroach to medical staff ratio
of the local hospitals. Okay, I get it, the healthcare's basic and it’s
not safe to go around wandering in the dark, but enough already!
The
day before, I met a lovely family, fourth generation Indo-Fijian, strongly
connected to both India and Fiji and super warm, hospitable, humble and
down-to-earth. The lady offered me her number without
my even asking. The guy is a presidential medal awardee and everything, apart from being chairman and president of this,
that and the other. But you’d never guess hearing any of them speak.
Anyway, all this socialising has meant less time to explore and write up my posts, there’s another event this evening (insert eyeroll here)…I was really tired out yesterday, the horror stories sap me, truly they do. (However, apart from the dire-y tales, I've also managed to prise out info on a local library - yay!) I’ve come, I’ve listened, I’ve given the warnings their due weightage, and now I am through. Be sensible, keep eyes and mind open and carry on - is going to be my mantra, as always. I'll focus on what can be done and leave the rest to work itself out.
Anyway,
I don’t know if it was all the extra going out or the extra-large helpings of
doom and gloom, but my old friend
insomnia struck last night, I woke up way before daybreak and couldn’t get back
to sleep. Didn’t want to disturb my husband, so sat out on the balcony and
watched the sky lighten by degrees. And from there, Yusuf was a natural progression…
From a personal standpoint, the last few years have been challenging. I feel a little bruised from their manhandling of me and my close family. The very structure and form of my family has been metamorphosed into something that’ll still take me some time to get used to. I had hoped this year would be different – a new place, a new start. But it’s the same old same old. A close family member back home has been diagnosed with cancer – it’s turned my heart and head inside out. Health issues are going to dog our collective life for the foreseeable future. Just super thankful that we are here and hubby’s able to do what he needs to do. So I'm praising with elation, praising every morning/God’s recreation of the new day. Not that I am evolved enough to understand the concept of an Almighty, definitely one of the ye-of-little-faith ones, but you know what I mean. May we each find the strength to overcome our individual crises, whatever they may be and do what we need to with an unrelenting focus.
While on the topic of thankfulness, I'd like to take the chance of also thanking the friends who've encouraged and supported me on this blog and otherwise, through this A-Z and through the other, much bigger challenges, Alana, Alex, Denise, Elephant’s Child, Hilary, Kristin, Joanne, Yamini - thank you! I cannot begin to sum up in words what it means to me.
Hey - thanks for even calling out my name. We are "friends" a zillion miles away. So sorry for your insomnia and struggles. I'm feeling a bit too only I'm just 1500 miles from my dad. Just came back from helping him with a bout of Covid. Vax, etc helped but has knocked this 90 year old back a ton. Big sigh.
ReplyDeleteEnough of that. Your posts are golden - just write away - you sum things up so well. We are in this together my friend.... Just LIFE. New worlds. New perspectives. You are strong and you have blog world to post and throw it out here.... Hope this helps.
Thank you Joanne for being here. Your groundedness and words always help. My heartfelt wishes for your Dad's complete and quick recovery. Take care of him and of yourself too.
DeleteThank you so much. I am so glad that I help to encourage and support you - as you do me, and many others.
ReplyDelete'Be sensible, keep eyes and mind open and carry on ' sounds like a wonderful - and workable mantra to me.
Thanks, EC! So far that mantra has never failed me. Fingers crossed it won't this time either.
DeleteHari OM
ReplyDelete...and thank YOU for being you, for this wonderful and timeless song, for continuing life in the best manner you can... it is all that we can expect of ourselves, or have expected of us. YAM xx
Y=Yamini
Thank you, Yamini. Sometimes it's easy to lose sight of that. And get swayed into panic and despondency because of the negativity of people around one.
DeleteWhat a calm way to spend morning insomnia. I usually just lay there listening to my husband breathing, trying to will myself back to sleep. I think getting up is the better option.
ReplyDeleteWe are the family elders here now, my husband and me. With cousins and siblings also aged and aging. If anyone starts dropping off, it's going to be us. A pause between the last generation leaving and our going.
Love this song. Love seeing morning break.
I love seeing morning break too, but rarely get to because I am mostly a night person.
DeleteCancer has taken several of my family members in the past, too many. This diagnosis is of a contemporary, not an elder, so doubly hard to grapple with.
Hi Nila - thanks for the thanks ... you've answered a question I raised further down the A-Z posts ... but you seem to have worked your way on what's going to work for you ... I sincerely hope all goes well for you and your hubby; while the family health scares are sad to read about ... take care and looking forward to more in May and onwards ... cheers Hilary
ReplyDeleteThank you Hilary for your good wishes and your unfailing positivity. It cheers me up no end.
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